Sunday, April 25, 2010


Together at last.

The last week of my life has been among the most beautiful and challenging times in my life.

Delia is home and getting stronger every day, and these two girls are angels.

GK has been so good to update and record some of their arrival story. My version to come soon. In the meantime, Vanny's enjoying being spoiled by his Grandmas and I'm just enjoying my kids and grateful for all the thoughts and prayers on their behalf.

Aren't they beautiful?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I Can't Stop Checking My Own Blog

And I'm not one who's comfortable with self promotion or the public exposure of intimate things.  So reading about the details of another person's life is too much for me sometimes. I can't do it alone, and I can't do it in the dark, and if those people aren't going to feel embarrassed and ashamed, then dammit, I'll do it for them. But I just love these little here's some more good stuff. Intimate, and delicious:

I didn't get to hold Cordelia after she was born. Trouble came to her right from the start and the first theoretical treatment was to keep her close to her Mom and sister for the night. She constantly groaned and wheezed, her little chest was sunken and she had a shallow pant and a little worrisome furrowed brow that never went away. It turns out she couldn't breathe without thinking about it, the way you and I and fat little Josie automatically can, so she labored without rest. For almost a day. I'm a paranoid Dad, it's true, but when Susanna called me in the morning to say that our little delicate one was in bad shape I learned a bit about real heartbreak. I'd never felt a physical hurt like that before. I hadn't even had the chance to see her little eyes. Until yesterday.

I feel dramatic talking about it. It's my nature to blow things off once they're settled, and to assume they're settled before they really are, but if we lived somewhere else, or in another time, there would be no happy ending. I believe that a loving God gives us our children to be ours forever. I believe that. But every premature loss is a tragedy. Ours opens me up to other people's experiences with their little ones and I wish I could be a doctor, or maybe what I am thinking of is a super-hero. My daughter's struggle, although serious and intense, only lasted a few days. Three times as long as I had known her otherwise. But I believe that children come to us as whole and complete people, and I didn't want her to go without seeing more of who she is. Susanna and I are so blessed, and lucky.

Since Monday morning Delia has continued to improve and develop each day at a rate that suprises everyone. Yesterday our Doctor called us with news that two days ago we were told we might not hear for weeks. So after Van was asleep and safe with his Grammy, Susanna and I made a late night drive to the hospital and found this:

There were several "firsts". Josie slept through the whole thing.

Thanks for letting me indulge...I just love being a Dad.

Monday, April 19, 2010

From the Front Lines to the Headlines: Status Report

Miss Delia is now in wonderful shape and only being held for rest and observation. They are also trying to fatten her up. Everybody loves a fat baby.

Here are two beautiful photos taken yesterday by Susanna's Mom:

Daddy's Little SCUBA Diver

Momma's Precious Lode Star

By the way, Van may be finally learning from his sister that crying gets one attention, but he loves his babies.

He did not want those nurses touching that cart!

Love at first sight; he reached in and pinched each little nose "beep beep"!

Sunday, April 18, 2010


After three very rough days little Delia had a great night last night and with some peace and rest she improved so dramatically that she has been taken off of the ventilator and put back on C-PAP respitory aid. This wonderful news means that although she is still getting some help, she is now breathing on her own and her blood is retaining oxygen. She ate this morning for the first real time since she was born and tonight Susanna may get to hold her. She just came to Earth a little too early. She's not quite out of the woods yet but she is well on her way. We consider ourselves very humbly blessed and fortunate. We are grateful for trained medical professionals who care, friends and family who bring congratulations, kind words, food, prayers, flowers, and more (especially those who watched Van for two days!). I wish we could return to your home the love and strength that you have brought to ours. Thank you.

Here is a simple explanation of her situation from the March of Dimes website (a group and event we will be supporting more actively):

Respiratory distress syndrome (RDS): Babies born before 34 weeks of pregnancy often develop this serious breathing problem. RDS is sometimes called hyaline membrane disease. Babies with RDS lack a chemical mixture called surfactant, which keeps the small air sacs in the lungs from collapsing. Treatment with surfactant helps affected babies breathe more easily.

Babies with RDS also may receive a treatment called C-PAP (continuous positive airway pressure). The air may be delivered through small tubes in the baby's nose, or through a tube that has been inserted into his windpipe. As with surfactant treatment, C-PAP helps keep small air sacs from collapsing. C-PAP helps your baby breathe, but does not breathe for him. The sickest babies may temporarily need the help of a ventilator to breathe for them while their lungs recover.

Saturday, April 17, 2010


Josephine Cheryl Risser
6 lbs 0 oz, 18 3/4 inches
April 15, 2010, 3:18 am

Cordelia Anne Risser
5 lbs 0 oz, 19 1/2 inches
April 15, 2010, 3:23 am

Sweet Sisters Forever.

Little Delia requires some extra attenion.
Please keep her in your prayers.

More to come soon.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Spoke Too Soon...

Surprise, Surprise

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

My Bright Star

I think...
she is...

More to come...soon, she hopes.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Details and Stats


34 weeks and as of this morning's check up, I'll probably be pregnant for the rest of my life (April Fools)

--I apologize for the prank, but I left my appt. this morning needing a pick me up. Too bad only 12 people read my blog anymore (Thank you those of you who have stuck with me in my inconsistency)


*The girls are still both currenly breech, which would eventually mean a C-section (though not until 39 weeks:(
*But if any two little ladies could dance their way into another position, it's these two. They move constantly!
*Today, I'm just ready to be done_physically.
*But I've got lots to do to really be ready, so I suppose I should be grateful for a few more weeks.

In the meantime, since I don't know those two little beauties in my last post, here's a shot of  my little beauty in all his splendor.

Next time, it'll be the real thing.


To the world...
Details coming soon. Mommy and babies are tired.